I care and I miss you, so much. I wish the things were the same, like before.
Now you would not talk to me anymore.
I know, times have changed.
Things have gotten worse. But some things have gotten better.
I hope you feel better now.
Even though that I could not resist of looking at your photos, I know this separation will make you better, and after a long time, months of separation, I still feel the same.
The feelings towards you haven’t changed.
I have been meeting other people. People, who are completely different from you.
I know you are meeting others too. Others, who are much better than me.
But everyday, I have been thinking, that I would rather spend the time with you.
And everyday, my feelings got worse. Worse, in the sense that I experience pain even though I know you are doing fine. Even though..
Even though, I know that everything will be fine and everyone’s been moving on and so did you and so did..
I know. I should stop all this drama. I should stop this drama!
The pain lingers on if I am the only one who does the drama.
I am hurting because I keep on doing this.
I know. Sounds weird.
You told to stop loving you, because it would hurt so much. And it does. It still does.
But I can’t stop loving you. I can’t. I tried, but nothing seems to work out. Nothing.
I played along, with others, hoping that this would carry the pain and misery away, but it didn’t.
It just didn’t.
And now, I am still sticking to what I did say, I will be here no matter what. I’ll be staying, even though you don’t want me anymore.
This is the only way to cope up.
I can’t be just any man’s comfort.
I am not like them. I am not like her.
This is the only way I can do.
The only way is not to fight the feeling, but to get along with it.
I need you to help me to get through with this.
All I can say is, I love you. I care. I miss you so much.