hmpff. T_T

 
Nakakaasar ka na ah.  Nang-iinsulto ka ba?  O baka busy ka lang.  Alam kong wala na akong karapatan pero asar eh.  Feeling ko palusot mo lang ‘yun.  Palusot ka lang nang palusot.  Totoo bang busy ka lang?  Ano na naman ang sasabihin mo? Ayokong magsinungaling ka sa’kin dahil hindi kita minsan man niloko.  Alam ko, [...]

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Still untitled. Wrote this down on the spot.

I care and I miss you, so much. I wish the things were the same, like before.
Now you would not talk to me anymore. 
I know, times have changed. 
Things have gotten worse. But some things have gotten better. 
I hope you feel better now. 
Even though that I could not resist of looking at [...]

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Trust.

Abah! May tiwala siya sa’kin!
 
Ngayon ko lang nalaman na may tiwala siya sa’kin.  Hindi nga ako makapaniwala!  Damn!! I can’t imagine that!  Wow! Not only that became touched by what he said, I became happy!  And also, my outlook became positive.  Another realization!  Wow, I feel great! I feel proud!
 
I asked him the weirdest question, [...]

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Sakit.

Nakakaasar naman.  Ubo ako nang ubo tapos hindi lumalabas ang dapat lumabas.   Hindi tumalab ang Solmux sa’kin.  Bakit kasi ‘yon pa binili ko, eh, alam ko namang Robitusin ang emepekto sa’kin?  Asar.  Ayoko nang magkasakit.  Argggh.  Ang dami ko pang ia-attend!  May Ms. Arts ako.  May soccer team.  May creative dance.  May folk dance [na [...]

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I just realized.. Hmmmm..

I think I am the “girl all the bad guys want”.
 
Coz I was linked to these guys:
 
I knew someone who was in love with me.  He’s nice actually.  He’s a punk and we lasted 6 months.  And no comment.
 
And then, a hardcore punk and proud frat member came to me and we became [...]

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Realizations after the flood.. Yeh!^^

 
 
I have been thinking.  I mean, I didn’t recognize it at first, but I told myself that there must be something that I have learned from what has happened.  So while I walk towards my boarding house, I’ve been thinking…  What has the flood had done to my attitude?
 
[1] I have learned that, in times [...]

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This Tuesday.

 

Whoa.  Malapit na July 15.  Anu kaya gagawin ko?
Hmm..kc tuwing 15th day of the month, gumagala ako..celebration ko yan eh..mag-isa lang ako.. it’s like every month is my birthday, every 15th is my celebrated triumph..that’s why, every 15th, I do special things for myself..

Well, July 15 is very special to me *ahem* and I want [...]

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where is it?

 
 
Where is my strength? I am living in a lie.  A big one.  And this big lie covers all lies.  I thought I am happy, because I am trying to be.  But I am feeling empty.  I am all alone.
 
Where is my strength?  It was drained by all the dreams I made.  And I am [...]

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diary.. nananananananananananah…

Saturday, February 09, 2008
11:27 AM
 
I just finished my other blog.  I lied down, staring in vast space.  He was sending me messages.  Through his messages, I have learned something.  I realized that I am too selfish to commit or even, contemplate suicide.  It was kinda pointless actually but I just heard my conscience fighting for [...]

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I was about to leave when an idea came to my mind.  I want to go elsewhere.  I was not bored but my mind was telling me to go and roam around and forget some things.  Then, this came to my mind—I want to write about something or some things, or about someone.  The truth [...]

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