Abah! May tiwala siya sa’kin!
Ngayon ko lang nalaman na may tiwala siya sa’kin. Hindi nga ako makapaniwala! Damn!! I can’t imagine that! Wow! Not only that became touched by what he said, I became happy! And also, my outlook became positive. Another realization! Wow, I feel great! I feel proud!
I asked him the weirdest question, and he answered it. And I was surprised by his reaction, “D ku kelangan mgulat kc d aman totoo, bkt mu naman ntanung un?”
But he sent me another message, saying, “Maliban lng kung na…”. Oops!
I thought he had I fixed mind about what he has said. He doubted. Damn, at that point, I thought that shouldn’t have asked him the weird question. But I can’t help it, I am turning to be one of those psycho freaks who psychoanalyze people, or reading people’s heads [I am turning to be a psychologist!!!]. Hindi ko naman sinasasadyang parang psychologist na ako kahit hindi pa ako graduate. And now, I can control people a bit using my ‘knowledge’ about people’s heads. But I am too good. I won’t use people. I don’t do that. I don’t lie and I don’t use people for my good and for any cause. Kaso simula ng 2nd year, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko mag-analyze. Lagi ko tinitingnan reaksyon ng mga tao. Damn.
I need to change this habit. I will shift my course anyway. I may not need this little ‘knowledge’ of mine.